If there was ever someone in a funk it’s me.
I refer to my brain in two parts: the smart brain and the emotional brain.
My smart brain knows I am being selfish and that I have a choice whether I yell at the kids or not.
My emotional brain feels the constant nausea, exhaustion and cluttered house and defaults to one mode: rudeness.
I’m not looking for consolation or justification, please don’t give it. I don’t have HG, I am not throwing up, I make the choice to not get enough sleep at night, I am just being a baby.
At the peak of my horrible mood today my dear friend calls and I begrudgingly answer. My tone is not kind. She asks how I am today and I tertly (spell check is saying that isn’t a word) answer, “Not good.”
Because she is the dearest kind of friend she does not get off the phone with me before praying. Of course, her prayer was exactly what I needed.
She prayed that God would show me His love in some tangible form soon.
Not kidding within 10 minutes my AWESOME 3 year old comes up and says, “Cwose you eyes, Mommy. I got a supwise for you.”
It melted my heart. He melts my heart. For the rest of the day he loved on me, told me sweet things and fell asleep on me tonight. Normally he would have been too busy playing to do all those things in one night. It was humbling and very much a cure for the funk.
I’m a pretty tough cookie, however, and needed more than the adorableness of Sterling.
night pic taken with my ancient iphone
I’ve also fallen in love with Blue Sky Organic Ginger Ale. Pair that with a bagel and Philadelphia Cream Cheese dark chocolate Indulgence and you have a yummy cure!
I’m thinking that if I continue to eat this snack on a regular basis I’m going to gain an enormous amount of weight this pregnancy. Hopefully, the morning sickness will only last another 3 weeks max.
If you’ve wondered where all the meaty posts have been this explains it. My motivation has been eaten up and I am working hard to get it back.
You need cloth diaper answers that’s why you come here!
Next week, our family is taking a much needed and very spontaneous vacation to the beach. With all that has occurred this year and will occur this summer we need to unplug.
I’ll have a couple of posts come out next week but you won’t see me on Facebook with my daily Question of the Day (unless I figure out how to schedule them).
My goal is to return to you having shed my funky slump skin.
If you have a question that needs a fast answer please post it in the comments or on the Facebook page. Remember there is also a community in the cloth diaper forum.
And one last cure for any depressive mood…
Just try and resist those juicy lips!
June 19, 2012 at 7:52 pm
Autumn, I love ‘tertly’- sounds like a cross between ‘tartly’ and ‘curtly’
June 15, 2012 at 10:40 am
I think it GRAND that you are able to decipher between the emotional brain and the smart brain. So often they seem to be the same for me. I’ve really enjoyed reading your Blog. I am cloth diapering three babies [no NOT triplets] fraternal twin boys and a two-month-old baby girl. I can relate.
You can read about it here if you’d like:
http://www.handsandheartsmorethanfull.blogspot.com
cheers!
June 14, 2012 at 2:31 pm
I have had this exact problem occasionally during my not-sick moments of my my second pregnancy. My daughter (being 3 as well) is the chattiest little button pusher (as 3 year olds are wont to be) and waaaay too smart for her own good. I feel like a tyrant at times demanding the impossible from her during my more hormonal moments. My solution comes in the form of her wonderful father. Mommy needs a break.
Good luck to all the other mommies out there suffering from the funk and hoping that relief comes your way in whatever form works for you!
June 12, 2012 at 7:11 pm
Congrats Autumm. Good to stop and reflect, sometimes we forget. My home is in a complete mess, so what am I doing about it this very second… baking! Thats how you get the house clean! Say a little prayer, get some baking done, and it will put myself in a better mood to clean up! Hang in there, I don’t know if you have a Trader Joe’s near you, but Ginger Lemonade helped me with my nausea. (just don’t have too much of it,no more than sips at a time.)
June 19, 2012 at 7:50 pm
When my husband comes home and sees that I’ve been baking he asks if I had a stressful day. He could never understand why I would bake when the house is already a mess! Now I can tell him I’m not the only one
June 12, 2012 at 11:17 am
Thanks for posting your less than perfect moments. It is certainly encouraging to me who has also had a hard time with my morning sickness and mood. You are always so real and genuine which is why I love reading your posts. I tire of the always-happy-always-got-it-altogether blogs I see out there. Prayer is always my go to, but it certainly helps to have fellowship with others in the same situations.
June 10, 2012 at 1:18 am
I love you very much.
He loves you even more.
June 10, 2012 at 12:10 am
Love this post!
June 9, 2012 at 4:46 pm
It’s so good to see someone not afraid to publicly acknowledge the good that our heavenly Father does for all of us. When I am down I find it helps to remember these scriptures (James 1:16-17) . . .. 17 Every good gift and every perfect present is from above, for it comes down from the Father of the [celestial] lights, and with him there is not a variation of the turning of the shadow.
(1 Thessalonians 5:16-18) 16 Always be rejoicing. 17 Pray incessantly. 18 In connection with everything give thanks. For this is the will of God in union with Christ Jesus respecting YOU.
It makes such a difference when we appreciate what we have been given. It helps us be joyful.
June 9, 2012 at 10:06 am
Thanks for the post! As I was reading it, my 2-month old on the amazing smelling nutramigen just spit up all over me. I was able to laugh at the situation instead of get frustrated. I love God’s timing and that He cares even about spit up.
June 9, 2012 at 8:04 am
First, congratulations on the new little one! My prayers to you that you will be feeling better soon.
Second, they have dark chocolate cream cheese?!? must. get. some.
June 9, 2012 at 7:14 am
Thanks for this post Autumn. My husband just asked me yesterday why I’ve been in a bad mood and snappy the last 6 weeks! Ha. I couldn’t even give him an answer. I’m finally over the nausea and hoping that help with the silly bad moods. Praying for you my friend!
June 9, 2012 at 12:03 am
Thank you for this post, I answered my email at just the right time. I’m currently holding a sleeping baby, have a sick child curled up next to me and a third child curled between my legs, watching a movie and feeling a little left out… And what does my husband do… Runs to Target with his brother to “go look at something”. Instead of fuming and barking at him when he gets back, I decided to pray instead. Thank you for the reminder!
June 8, 2012 at 11:48 pm
Oops! Will PRAY we both become. ‘Unslumped’ soon! Its another late nate!
June 8, 2012 at 11:46 pm
Hmmmm. That makes two of us! Will we both become ‘unslumped’ soon!!