I know, so cliche.
But, true, right?
You’re probably checking to see if you are reading the right blog. You are. I have a wetbag full of cloth diapers needing to be washed and a basket of clean ones right in front of me needing to be put up. Yep, you’re in the right place.
But, I am more than cloth diapers. I am a mom just like you who needs someone to tell me that rashes, ammonia, leaking and stalking failure should not steal my joy!
My heart aches for those women who can’t have children of their own. Then I turn around and shoo mine away.
My heart breaks for those parents who silently pack up the newborn stash of cloth diapers because their baby didn’t get to come home with them. Then I complain about changing a poopy diaper.
I weep for those praying over an incubator for just one more day. Then I rush my children off to bed and get upset if they make a peep. As if my enjoyment doesn’t start until they’re in bed.
Don’t get me wrong, I love my children as much as any mother. It pains me to discipline them because those big eyes and soft skin make me want to melt. I look at pictures of them and think, “how could I ever be mad or annoyed or frustrated at this??!”
When I’m at my limit, and if I remember, I start tickling my kids till they’re kicking and giggling uncontrollably. How could I not shake my bad mood at the sound of laughter?
I have really tried to make an effort to be kind, loving and a model for righteous behavior. I want my children to look back when they are adults and recall the times I prayed with them, held their hand through a sibling squabble, taught them a new skill, cooked with them, played a game, SMILED!
Ugh, to smile is so simple yet it is so overlooked (by me!).
I know this sounds like a downer post but it is meant to be an encouragement to strive for more than mediocrity.
Most likely we are all “good” parents, but I want to be “the best” in my children’s eyes.
Does it really matter if I chose to cloth diaper my children because it’s healthier if I can’t manage to show them joy? A joyful parent trumps a grumpy cloth diaper parent any day.
Next time I’m feeling annoyed I will tell myself that in an instant all that is around me could be gone. It happens every day to families. Every moment we have is a gift I want to treasure.
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